Life is like a rhythm.

This is something I wrote the other day when I couldn't sleep again. Doesn't necessarily make sense.

The thought just sorta poped out in my head. Like when you can't sleep you start thinking bout things and then it's even harder to fall asleep and you just have to get up to do something until you feel like getting back to bed again.

And so I wrote:

Don't you ever think that people are emotionally constrained? As in all your actions are taken based on considerations of the impact and the after result of that particular act. Just like before expressing what is truly in your mind you go through a cycle of consideration whether what you said would be accecpted or relevant. You do things after you reassure yourself that whatever you're going to attempt would be accepted or whether it is humanly commonsensical. And most of the time you might not even notice it.

Of course there are occasions that one might act a little out of the blue. You see, most of the time people are expected to act a certain way. And when they do something which is not consider normal in their nature, others would be curious. Some might even think that person is acting weird.

In other words, my theory is that people does not act on freewill. Theoretically you say that everyone is given the freedom to do or say whatever they desire. But fact is, the fear of being outcasted outwits everything. If a person were to act based on freewill and nothing but that, judgement would be unavoidable. All of us have different prinsips and beliefs. And when someone else does something that diverge from it, we label them as 'weirdo' ,'loser', 'nerd', 'geek', 'dork' or worst, 'freak'. It's a huge insult if you ask me. And come to think of it, it's kinda infair, we do this just because we don't understand and refuse to accept something that is different from our own beliefs. And often than not, we don't even bother to put ourselves in the other person's shoes.

But then again, who are you to tell others what they should, or shouldn't do? You, for one, are not them. And who said there's an answer to what's right or wrong?

I guess that's why no one dares to express themself too much, not unless you're sure that you're in the safety zone, in this case it's probably your circle of friends or cliché, people that you know won't shoot judgemental glances at you, people that would agree with you.

In a nostalgic way, living in this world is like playing a game. We each play our little role in this game called reality, doing what we should do. Being different might result in getting kicked out from the game. And it's something we do not want to risk because there's too much to loose.

That's life isn't it?

Live in this world, play the game.